sad.bad day, bad day, lonely. done.

Rant.Rave.Done.

My mom was telling me the other day that I should go out to clubs with these girls I dont like, who do hard drugs, because I’m young and I need to have fun. She never let me go to a party while I lived at home. I hate drugs, people that do them. I cant even stand when my boyfriend drinks. It’s so classless and destructive. I’d rather be alone. I hate being the sober one. It’s not that I dont like beer, because I do love the fancy stouts and porters. I just have never and will never get drunk because I have a lot more self worth than that. *ranting and raving*

My mom and I get along because she’s my mother. I love her, but she often mystifies me. She acts like we’re close when we’re around some of her friends, but when my boyfriend is around she picks on me. Now that I’m gone it seems she’s grown more wild and wants to regain her youth. She tells people that I was a mistake in a joking way. But I’m not. We’re all victims of fate, part of a plan. My purpose is to connect with people and make them realize their worth by just loving them. I respect my parents for who they are but I wouldnt want to be like them, for who they have been or who they are now.

I’m going to really love my kids and give them everything I can, especially my time because that is whats most important. I’m really going to connect with them, and allow them to be expressive and optimistic. 

I cant wait to have a family, to feel apart of someone and something. I cant wait to just make kids happy every day, and to guide them through life. 

I think what’s really bothering me is the fact that my parents have been fighting and it feels like my mom’s just waiting for my dad to slip up just to leave him. Her friend that is a guy was being cold and kind of rude to my dad on thanksgiving, and I often feel that she is being selfish and doesnt appreciate my dad.

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my plan worked!

getting a boy haircut has scared the boys away.

heaven is the feeling i get in your arms.

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Saul Williams, from the zine “Excuse Me, Can You Please Pass the Privilege?” — click the link to download, the whole thing is a fucking great read. And thanks to garconniere’s reblog which pointed me thataway!

 i fuckin love Saul Williams.

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Reblog if you don’t have girlfriend or boyfriend.

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i hate cigarettes so much.

that’s all i have to say.

i love this haircut

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"The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them."

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